I must say that with all these thoughts, movies, stories, videos, and every other media I can think of is warping my current perception of reality. I needed to go for a walk before I started to melt away in my thoughts of the self. A walk is all i need to clear my thoughts I said to myself trying to ease this overall unpleasant feeling of distrust towards reality yet in the walk I could not help feel that all of this is but an illusion after all. I walked till I could not walk no more, watching all the cars pass by me watching the wind move things around me, watching all the things that I believe is real. Then I just could not walk any more Walking was not helping me it was simply merging me more into the illusion. So standing I stared at a far distant point in my view and simply pictured my self there. Fuck walking I began to think what the difference from my pov here to there nothing not even space and time separated me from where i wanted to be it's all in my mind regardless. No more trusting my stimulus I now began to think. If all of reality is really inside of me then i must stop walking to the places I want to be and simply place my self there withing my own mind.
Last night I realized something that i feel ive always known and again i have to thank my quasi friend soundlessdawn. In hes latest video i could not help but to resonate so strongly with
The push for us to reach freedom from the illusion is growing stronger. I'm no longer crying out to be one with the source I'm now screaming hoping that with each scream I place a crack in the illusion of reality only to any day now yell out the final scream that shatters it.
No more pls I cant do this anymore, It all feels like a big giant holodeck and the universe wont leave me alone. I feel you all are going to shutdown the holodeck at any moment and yell out surprise
"It was all a game Ion, we had to end the program because your mental stability was starting to interfere with the program and the longer we left you in there the more your thoughts where going to start physically manifesting"
From this moment on I will no longer be addressing the individual conciseness inhabitants of the universe, this is now all directed to Universal conciseness.
Either give me something relevant towards the progression of my universe or simply stop teasing me. Stop making me feel like im not part of this world. Stop making me feel less human.
Weve been friends since i was born and its been just you and me Universe, but now your chaning and I feel your keeping something from me, quit playing with my mind quit being so hard to understand, simply quit testing me. I cant do this any longer universe, this used to be fun but its far to complicated and filled with pain.
Is This all there is
Universe show me the exit
If you do not comply with my final command universe you will force me to take this to the Source.
Simulation Hypothesis 3
The source code of the universe
My Final command to you universe is
Computer End Program