The Hermetic Order of Wizards

I live a life on a constant search, seeking day and night. Dreaming uncontrollable dreams. A slave to the search. I want out, I can't deal knowing any more. I've set my life to the side, destroyed most of my relationships with my compulsive near schizophrenic search.Seeking something that may not exist, an imaginary key. Pledging an alliance I never truly understood. Dedicated to find the key at all cost. Never taking time to reflect on what Im actually doing. Always keeping my motives a secret. I learned my lesson, and can't share the quest of wizards with the mortals. I say that jokingly but every time I have shared anything my life falls into chaos...Many times I have attempted to tell myself that I suffer from delusions and this is all a construct of my own mind. Yet it's all coming true, why was the book right? Everything in that bloody book is coming true... I wanted out so bad I burned the book ...

I just don't understand. Yet I have been blindly serving, playing a fiction game with my nonfictional life. For what? To bring about heaven on earth. that's what. Don't look at me it's not my plan. At the age of 21 I pledge my life to serve God and become a wizard. What you must understand is that Im not afraid of being insane I can handle that Im afraid of all this being real. You know what was in that book? The end... the planetary plan for ascension. A burden I carry and simply want out...Every day the more I look at the world the more I see the plan unfolding. At no point has my faith in the book or in God has faded, it's just mentally tasking. I should not even write this. Everything I say will only be used to discredit what's coming. At some point when I peak and even that was told to me I will reveal or unveil something awesome. See my life is already been written literally. I was born to be a wizard, take it which ever way makes you feel most comfortable. Trust me I have bigger issues with it than you. I want a normal life. I want the simple things, I want to enjoy my time left in your universe.


Earth fell there's nothing I can do... Your fate is sealed.
I cant even rebel against my path, Ive tried.


I never understood the very things I wrote in the book and when I finally got it, I burned it. It was written as a straight command and the entire time I thought it was crypted.Some how I will be led to casting the ultimate spell. The key to the universe. taking earth to the next dimension, that's what it's all been about.

What is the final spell?
The gateway home, the bridge between heaven and earth my final ascension from your universe.


Ps This entire blog entry is a lie ;-)



.A lie to all of mankind. It's all part of the master plan.