Scary as fuck dreams!

I suffer from sleep paralysis and it starting to get so intense that I feel im tearing myself out of my body every other night.  just getting up to write this caused much struggle.  I have developed an experiment to see if Im really exiting my body while I sleep. It requires two people, what I will do is have someone write on a piece of paper and place it near my bed. The goal is to read what is on that piece of paper while I sleep. If im truly waking up in my mind before my body I may be able to do this.

There not dreams Im certain of it. Im literally being pulled out of my body while I sleep by another force.  When this happends I cant help but feel there is something in the room with me and purposely block my mind from accepting that something exist beyond the fabric of reality.  I know this because Ive been there in one dream already and it was an extraordinary experience.

One night during my normal sleep paralysis I felt the sheets being pulled down and I was powerless to move. I was terrified as I did not trust the being in the room with me. Next a wormhole begins to open over me and I literally get pulled out of my body and taken to another dimesion.  My first reaction was that I died! I truly thought that was it and I was now trancending into a different realm of existence. Once I get there a being gathers up me and other people like in a giant circle.  We are told something about our "mission" which I dont remember at all but simply felt that I was to return to earth to do something. No... It felt more like a reunion or a status report. Me and others we're discussing where we where in life and overall the plan of this circle.  The best way I can describe it felt like a celestial cabal, very similar to the stories of the ascended masters. We were planning ascension. Most of my life is guided by my constant obedience to celestial beings.  I cant fully understand what it is all about but I do believe it is for the greatest good. More on this later.

It's not all pleasant though most of it is scary as fuck in all honesty! Im fully awake inside my body and yet I cant move. Im blogging about it only because it is becoming more intense and im now sure there is an entity in the room with me.  I just woke up from a sleep paralysis and frankly Im not really in the mood to go sleep. I know going in that nobody is in the house and nobody can come into the house yet when I wake up inside my body something invisible is in the room. One night I had fallen asleep with out eating anything all day and I felt it making a gesture of touching my mouth offering me something to eat while I just layed there fighting to move.  This is what Ive learned so far, I can move around only not with my real body. For instance I currently have my computer in the living room and wanted to come into living room to blog. I walked into the room several times only to realize that I was not in my body.

Something new is happening though It almost feels as if something is attempting to cross over into our world. Something Im deeply afraid of therefore I doubt it is friendly. It's all so confusing to me.

There is also times that I feel bombarded with information as if the sleep paralysis is keeping in a state of informational upload and Im being programmed to do something by some inter dimensional being.

I know this sounds like elobrate dreams and I wish they where... Only I really believe in the "macros" thats what I call them. Beings at higher planes of existence. Even though it is scary most of the time the one instance I  went through the portal was the only time I felt totally at peace and almost one of them. Sometimes I do see humanity as larva to a higher form of life. Therefore my experience is prepping me to be born...

Then again this may all be part of the near hallucinogenic state you feel right before you wake up.