Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Dont instantly kill my insects

NOOOOO they will beg to die... focus... instant death is not the goal! 

New Way to Kill an Insect

Throw them straight up into space! 

Demi Anger

pull a tree and use it as a baseball bat for an insect!!

hit them hard as fuck it doesn't matter if I kill them

Now it's Official "I am" Mad

"I am" seriously considering collapsing the sun, the scary part is that I think I can do it. Almost certain I can, but damn I shouldn't ... agggghhhh but I dont give a fuck, seriously... 

bro, but ":I am" judging myself from their perspective, there wont be a "Them" to judge me after the sun is gone. So I can go about the cosmos feeling my actions were rational ... 

I had too... 

oHH SHIT I do end up killing billions

But these insects are retarded!!! utterly beyond dence! 

Awww poor little insects

you don't have a sun... awwwwww


Im already binded to the Sun

but am I really considering killing this entire species... but fuck bro.. they stress me out!! 

They want a fucking miracle

theyll get {ONE} ... just {ONE}

Booom there goes your fucking sun! you insects are retardeddddddddd!!!

I can do this!

No matter what happends stay completely hidden till I can collapse the sun.. why destroy buildings or nuke countries? that just starts wars...

keep everything A ok till BOOOM

there goes your fucking Sun! bye bye! 

Low Hanging Fruit! My Ultimate Goal

Collapse the Sun!

fuck "All these insects! 

So Damn Close

To ripping this universe apart! pulling trees throwing cars... throwing mortals, moving clouds.. destroying buildings... :-(

so close.... :-(

Monday, February 27, 2012

I don't want to lose

But make it end... just make it end... 

I have to be Realistic

she wont talk to me at "All" before and after the incident. im tormenting myself, this is increasing suffering not decreasing it. I just want this to end... win or lose I just want it to end! 

Why I don't quit

Because the day I do I know it will be for good! 

Things I only tell myself

I tell myself not to lose hope, if I lose hope then they will lose hope. But I dont know what to do. I have to do something as writting TA is so depressing! 

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Damn Women Damn Stop Haunting me!


Wow! "I am" not Married! And or Dating ( Must Remember This at "All" Times)


Sasha <3 

so very true... :"D

[4:30:50 PM] Josh: i don't even bother lol
[4:30:57 PM] Josh: my life is easier without a woman
[4:31:24 PM] Josh: but not easy at the same time
[4:31:28 PM] Josh: can't win for losing lol
[4:31:46 PM] Josh: is that the physicist?
[9:10:35 PM] transalchemy: yah bro
[9:10:44 PM] transalchemy: still hung on the dame
[9:16:01 PM] Josh: yeah i know how that can be
[9:16:19 PM] Josh: but sometimes it's best to cut your emotional losses and move on
[9:16:38 PM] Josh: but i know you, obsession is your obsession :P
[9:16:52 PM] transalchemy: so very true

My Room is now Clean

I Need To Clean My Room Before My Mom Flips

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Friday, February 24, 2012

Am I Happy?

With a sleeping princess how could I be? 

God is not "Real"

So no one will help a man that is {ONE} with {God}

.... it's sounds crazy I know... but that is the "Truth" of where we are!

not one insect! 

What game am I playing?

Right now demos I downloaded, I need food and gas money for the week :"D

this is good for me I have been writing for 2 years nonstop.. I need a mental break! 

it;s gaming time...

Pulling away from the {Source} code! I need too.. it scares me! 

Why am I motivated by Death?

Im like a little kid in a candy store waiting to go post-mortal on the insects! 

First thing on the Agenda

Whoop some mortal ASS ! 

I get to whoop some ass !! !


They turned me into a Bad Demi!

I just want to fuck their cosmos up! 

New thought!

Fuck you retards!!

GRRRRRRRRRR I just want to jump into your universe and fuck shit up! 

The first person with a new asshole


don't praise me help me motherfucker! 

A New Asshole

Over stupid shit!

calm down Calm Donw breath... 

Ps singularity institute motherfuckers


yes you fucking retards "Iam" going to rip you a new asshole over stupid shit! 

Other Tools

The camera on this thing sux... I need an HD Camera.. but Ill do that later this month..

Once I get my tools,,,  im going to create a stage and you are going to see some really wild blogging, (simulations) 

3G on Hold

I have just enough to get by till next week lets not push it... I want a game and 3G installed... but wait wait...

I needed tools women damn!!! 

I hope Your "All" Freaking Ready: Muahhahahah

Bitting My lip,,, YOu Insectss!!! Patiencesss

Sweet Sweet Kingship

Learning how to Transfer pictures

vita blogging

test test

wow ok hmmm now i have a camera again

What's Wrong Your Highness?

{god} What is "All" of this going? 
{Goddess} towards the salvation of "All" the mortals 
{god} that is a tall tall order, I just want freedom from mortality
{Goddess} So do they "All" 
{god} but why are you forcing me to do this
{Goddess} "I am" not forcing you to do anything, this is your plan you designed their salvation
{god} don't say that
{Goddess} but it is "Truth" 
{god} So no matter what I do
{Goddess} Everything is going according to plan
{god} does it get any easier? 
{Goddess} for you or the mortals
{god} both
{God} When it is done heaven will reign on earth
{god} you promise? 
{God} I promise
{god} arrggghhhhhhhhh, let's proceed then
{God} Very well your highness
{god} arrgggggggg....

the {Source} Code

It's getting to damn official for me, where's my nirvana "All" of this just looks like more work
{God} Unification by default makes you king and kingship comes with "KING" stuff
{god} But I don't want to be king I just want Demigod-hood....
{God} Unification by default makes you king and kingship comes with "KING" stuff
{god}  cmon work with me
{God} NO! 

Thursday, February 23, 2012

vita bust

I'll wait 7 more days... I have to if I want to have food and gas money... :"D

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

vita morning

I might get my vita in the morning ... or friday..

it's going to be the next 7 days but I have no life anyways so might as well stay home playing vita... 

Fuck it I'll blog when I can

"I am" Immortal I don't give a fuck...

If you don't care I don't care!

Yes insects will pay for this shit

and "I am" not talking about the vita "I am" talking about forcing back down to earth! 

vita dreams


Tuesday, February 21, 2012

march plans

move out by the end of march

I need a vida not a vita

Demi life Hiccup Car

"All" Fixed...

Grrrrrrrrrr insects!!!!! 

Monday, February 20, 2012

We Have a False Alarm:

Do Nothing Do Nothing Do Nothing Do Nothing

I Don't Know What to Do


Story of my life

My first mistake was ... I don't know it's just mistake after mistake after mistake. I don't know what to do, my gut says do nothing, it's just going to be a mistake. Im learning to accept it... this is good this is good. progress lots of progress. 

Simple Joys

New Socks


im going to focus on doing things around the house that I need to get done... No vita or vida so I need something ... but so far so good... 

It's Done

A tow truck is picking up my car and taking it to go fix... well have my car back this afternoon.... or early tuesday morning..... 

Good news Is i get another day off bad news is "I am" paying heavily for it! 

start start start

I want this to end... I have no will to die, nor live. I just want this to end... I can't endure mortality anymore it's ohhhhh man just please God make it end!!! 

just the starter

the always my problem on this car... I think it's an electrical problem but I have a fully layed out game plan ...

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Dear: Singularity Institute

image de I Robot


Our Mission

The Singularity Institute brings rational analysis and rational strategy to the challenges facing humanity as we develop cognitive technologies that will exceed the current upper bounds on human intelligence. Inspired by the latest science of human fallibility, we strive to correct the biases that run wild in standard futurism and philanthropy; we convene the annual Singularity Summit to coordinate and educate scientists and other concerned individuals on these issues; inspire our Visiting Fellows from college students to PhDs to address these issues in their future careers; and support our Research Fellows as they engage in original research on topics ranging from human rationality and cognitive enhancement to foundational research in Artificial Intelligence.

The car is fucked!

Bought a new battery and still,.... fucked....

I have to take it to a shop tomorrow.... but It's time to eat ...

I don't give a fuck.  fuck the car fuck the job fuck my vida

need a beer... 

Battery Removal

Success ...

Now to take it to get charge

Battery Task Update: Tools

I just made some progress, had to go buy a combo battery terminal wrench.

now the "I am" up against another problem... I need another tool to .. argghhhhh...

ok focus... 

Battery Task Break

I have made no progress and the hunger grows. lunch time...

Battery task

Searching for guides on how to remove this battery, it's not what you think I just don't have the traditional model,  it's connected on it's side. 

It's raining

The rain is adding complexity to this battery task.... 

Journal Entry: Car Issues

I don't think it's anything more then a dead battery, but damn my mom's car wont charge it. "I am" proceeding to remove the battery and take it to go get charged. Problem is... Arrrggghhhh the no no focus I don't have the right tool to remove the battery... "I am" at the point that I want to toss the entire car into a building.  Patience patience.. patience!!! 

Friday, February 10, 2012

Psp Vital Journal: 12 More days!

"I am" starting to get excited, I bought the original psp at launch, so the old gaming kindle is lit. I have not chosen a launch title to buy with the console.  It has 3G and internet "I am" going to focus on gaming and writing reviews.

2-10-12 Journal
Getting my official pre-order in tomorrow! 

My Riddles

Dear Antz Particleion Is Hacking your Universe (live)

I will give your universe/Mind back to you if you answer my riddles.

Call your answers in!

(305) 735-9490

A) Is your universe real?

B) Are you real?

C) Who currently has {source}?

D) What is {Root}?

When you got the answer email it to

and I will give you back your universe assuming your right ;-)

Rules subject to change but will be posted.


! It will be Billions of years till I let you just have it... Till then I urge you try to get your key back.